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Tue, 11 Apr 2006 01:56:31 GMT

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Mon, 03 Apr 2006 18:55:10 GMT

Today I threw up... next to Sissy Bitch.

First up date in over a month... woooohooooo

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 02:38:26 GMT

http://kevan.org/johari?name=WhatSarahSaid

Do it.

P.S. Let's hang out real soon.

Sun, 26 Feb 2006 08:15:37 GMT

I'm a fucking insomniac. I never sleep anymore. I run solely on coffee. I need to go back to the way I was at this time last year. I can't keep pretending that I don't want to. I know I want to. I don't care if i get caught this time. I don't care what people think about it. I love when people try to change my mind for me. I freakin love that one. Or when people are the morality police. Thats a real kick in the pants.

Without 40 ounces of social skills
I'm just an ass in the crack of humanity.
I'm just a huge manitee.
A huge manitee.

And besides you're probably holding hands
With some skinny, pretty girl that likes to
Talk about bands, and
All I wanna do is ride bikes with you
And stay up late and watch cartoons

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 01:18:30 GMT

So for the most part this week was deez. I can't wait for summer it is going to be so good. The only part that has sucked is that I have an ear infection. I went to the hospital today for an appointment and they ended up telling me that I have a double ear infection and that's why my head has been hurting so much etc. I'm over it though. Today I had a really good conversation with a kid I haven't talked to in a while, I've really missed him and I love that we talk more and more each day.

Sat, 18 Feb 2006 01:56:21 GMT

I hate when you know that you're perfect for one another but they don't see it.

anyways we should hang out over vacation cause I'm a fun girl like that.

Oh and I can do THE FRUG

and I can not do THE SMURF

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 03:47:47 GMT

Have you ever been searched by the cops?
Eh no not searched

2. Do you close your eyes on roller coasters?
NEVER!

3. When's the last time you've been sleigh riding?
December

4.Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?
with someone else of course

5. Do you believe in ghosts?
yeah i do.

6. Do you consider yourself creative?
Sometimes then other times i'm just you know not.

7. Do you think O.J. killed his wife?
Yeah but I guess the glove didnt fit

8. Jennifer Aniston or Angelina Jolie?
Jennifer Aniston by far

9. Can you honestly say you know anything about politics?
I can say I know my opinions on political issues, I can't speak on more than that though.

10. Do you know how to play poker?
Texas hold em. so good. play me Ill take your money home.

11. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
Many times

12. Have you ever cheated on a test?
Who hasn't

13. If you're driving in the middle of the night, and no one is around. Do you do the speed limit?
I don't have a license.

14. Do you have a secret that no one knows but you?
Yeah everyone has secrets

16. Have you ever ice skated?
No, lets go okay?

17. How often do you remember your dreams?
All the time

18. When was the last time you laughed so hard you were crying?
Earlier today

19. Do you believe in love at first sight?
No not at all. you can not base love off looks alone. love at first sight is doing just that. sure that person may be beautiful but who knows they may be a whore or just a beast.

20. Do you know who Ba-Ba-Booey is?
No, nor do i really care.

21. Do you always wear your seatbelt?
not usually

22. What talent do you wish you had.?
I wish I had musical talent.

23. Do you like sushi?
the vegetarian kind

25. What do you wear to bed?
Pajamas.

26. Have you been caught stealing?
Nope never

27. Do you truely hate anyone?
no i just feel sub par about them

28. Rock and Roll or Rap?
Rock and roll.

29. Have you ever played nintendo?
UH HECK YES!

30. Do you have a relative in prison?
A few.

31. Have you ever sang in front of the mirror?
Nah. just in the shower

32 Do you know how to play chess?
uhm yeah chess rules

33. Have you ever made fun of your friends behind their back?
nah just to their faces

34. Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew?
Yeah

35. Have you ever been punched in the face?
No never in the face.

36. When is the last time you threw up from drinking too much?
Never, I hold alcohol well.

37. Have you ever walked out on a movie at the theater?
I havent been to the movies in forever i completely forget

38. Do you ever sit through a bad movie, just to see how bad it is?
same as above

39. Would you consider yourself obsessed with anything/anyone?
yeah. Hello kitty rules.

40. Have you ever met someone famous that you really wanted to meet?
Yeah, I really miss going to shows and meeting people.

41. Have you ever been stood up?
nah

42. When's the last time you screamed at the top of your lungs?
Today

43. Did you ever do something that you didn't want to, just to fit in?
No. I hate when people do that.

44. Do you consider yourself "the biggest fan" of something?
Probably not.

45. Have you ever fell alseep with both socks on to wake up with having one or none on?
yeah and i hate it because i can never find the other sock.

46. For gay marriages?
Yeah love is love

47. Have you ever stood in the shower for 10 minutes just standing there?
uhm yeah

48. Average hours you sleep at night?
not a lot lately

49. Ever got caught doing something you shouldnt be doing?
Hahah all the time. its great

50. For distant relationships?
no. not at all.

***W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R***
1. pierce your nose or tongue?: tongue
2. be serious or be funny?: Funny.
3. drink whole or skim milk?: i hate milk
4. die in a fire or drown? id rather be shot to be honest

***A R E Y O U***
1. simple or complicated?: Simple but complicated at times.
2. Gay or Straight? Straight.
3. Hardcore? hah.
4. Honest?: yes. honesty means the world to me

***D O Y O U P R E F E R***
1. flowers or angels?: Flowers. Lilies. Tulips. Fuck roses though.
2. deep or shallow?: Deep.
3. Color or Black and white photos? Black and white they show more emotion I think
4. lust or love?:Love
5. sunrise or sunset?: Sunrise.
6. M&Ms or Skittles?: Skittles.
7. rap or rock?: Rock.
8. staying up late or waking up early?: both.
9. eating apples or oranges?: peaches

***A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y***
1. do you like anyone?: Yeah and its killing me.
2. do they know it?: No, not at all.

***D O Y O U P R E F E R***
1. being hot or cold?: cold
2. sun or moon?: Moon.
3. winter or fall?: Autumn
4. left or right?: eh either?
5. having 10 aquaintances who will have sex with you or two best friends?: thats a different spin on that question. but two best friends.
6. sun or rain?: I love the rain
7. vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? Vanilla is amazing
8. boys or girls: boys.yeah.

***A B O U T Y O U***
What time is it?: 10:12 Pm eastern standard time.
Name?: Sarah
Nickname(s):none

***W H A T D O Y O U W A N T***
1.Where do you want to live? small city.
2.How many kids do you want?: idealy none. but if i end up having kids no more than three
3.What kind of job do you want?:art therapist.
4.Do you want to get married? I dont know

***U N I Q U E***
1. Nervous Habits? Nail biting
3. Can you roll your tongue?: yes!
4. Can you raise one eyebrow? noooo
5. Can you cross your eyes?: heck yea
6. Do you make your bed daily?: no
7. Which shoe goes on first?: uh the one closet to me
9. What jewelry do you wear? uh pearls, amethyst ring

***F O O D***
1. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?: Twirl duh.
2. Have you ever eaten Spam?: no thanks.
3. Favorite ice cream flavor?: Dublin Mudslide
4. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet?: 4.
5. What's your favorite beverage? Apple Juice
6. What's your favorite restaurant?: Elijah's.

***G R O O M i N G***
1. How often do you brush your teeth?: every morning.
2. How do you wear your hair for the most part?: up because well its just easier
3. Have you ever dyed/highlighted your hair? Yea. havent in a while though

***M A N N E R S***
1. Do you swear?: Like a sailor but im trying to stop.
2. Do you ever spit? yeah.
3. You cook your own food: yes. i love cooking.
4. You do your own chores?: uhm ive never been told to do chores ever.
6. You like beef jerky? nah
7. You like pepsi or coke?: Coke is so much better
8. You plan on going to college?: yeah
9. You're happy with your hair?: sometimes
10. You own a dog?: nope
11. You spend your money wisely? uh when i want to yeah
12. You're always making new friends?: not anymore. im happy with what ive got.
13. You like to swim?: i love the water
14. You get bored so you call a friend?: all the time
15. You're patient?: on some things yes others not so much
16. You like this survey? its keeping me occupied

***L E T ' S B E H O N E S T . .***
In the last month have you...
1. Had sex: Yes.
2. Bought somethng: Uh everyday
3. Gotten sick: im always sick
4. Sang: all the time
5. Been kissed: yeah
6. Gone on a date? I wouldnt call it a date
7. Felt stupid? everyday of my life
8. Missed someone: of course
9. Got drunk: maybe i cant remember
10. Gotten high: NOOOOOOOO ahhhhhh seriously I NEED TO.
11. Danced crazy: uh yeah
12. Gotten your hair cut:nope
13. Watched cartoons: probably
14. Lied: i would say fibbed

***Last Person that...***
1. Slept in your bed: myself
2. Saw you cry: Britni
3. Made you cry: fuck you
4. Went to the movies with: britni
5. You went to the mall with: britni
8. You talked on the phone with: britni... i sense a pattern
9. Said 'I love you' to you: eh.
10. Broke your heart: fuckkkkkkkkkkk youuuuuuuuuu
11. Made you laugh: britni
12. Bought you something: eh ayyyyyyyyyyyyyjayyyyyyyyy

***Have You Ever...***
1. Wished you were the opposite sex:no not really.
2. Snuck out of your house?: i wouldnt say snuck i just leave without anyone knowing. im not sneaky about it i walk out the front door.
3. Gave money to a homeless person: Yea

1. What does your MySpace name mean? My name

2. Who introduced MySpace to you? shannon maybe i dont really know

3.how many comments do u have? uh i dont count

4. What's your current relationship status? single and hating it so much

5. What are you wearing right now? pajamasssss llamas

6. What is your current problem? people

7. What are you doing right now? listening to missy higgins

8. What do you love most? thats hard

9. What makes you most happy? my best friend

10. Are you musically inclined? not at all :(

11. What would you do if you woke up one morning and found out you were on cocaine? im pretty sure i would know i was on cocaine before i went to sleep.

12. If you could go back in time, and change something, what would it be? everything

13. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day, what will you be? i have no idea

14. Ever have a near death experience? yeah. plenty

15. Name ONE obvious quality you have: Im wicked cool.

16. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now? Scar

17. Are you happy today? No

18. Who will cut and paste this first? No one most likely

19. What is your favorite food? chicken noodle soup sans the chicken

20. Have you ever vandalized someone's private property? yeah, im a bitch

21. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex? uh yeah

22. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience? no

23. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Eyes

24. What do you usually order from Starbucks? dunkin donuts for me thanks

25. What is your biggest mistake this year? Hmm too many to choose from

27. Say something totally random about you: I like to read while sitting upside down

28. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity? no.

29. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows? kid movies are the best

30. Did you have braces? nope never

31. Are you comfortable with your height? i guess so.

32. What is your name? Sarah

33. When do you know it's love? i dont want to think about love

34. Do you speak any other languages? Some french

36. What is your favorite smell? hmmm vanilla

37. Have you ever been to a tanning salon? with my sister in law. but i didnt tan

38. What magazines do you read? Cosmo

39. Have you ever ridden in a Hummer limo? YES they are so nice

40. Has anyone you were really close with passed away? yeah. i hate that.

41. Do you ever watch MTV? Yeah. I love their stupid reality shows

42. What's something that really annoys you? People.

43. What's something you really like? hello kitty

44. Do you like Michael Jackson? no.

45. Do you give random hugs and kisses? Yes all the time.

46. What's the longest you've gone without showering? i have no idea

A - Age of your first kiss: 13 maybe 12
B - Band you are listening to right now: Missy Higgins
C - Crush: seriously
D - Dad's name: Beans.
E - Easiest person to talk to: Britni
F - Favorite Finger: how random
G - Gummy worms or Gummy bears: Worms def.
H - How many bestfriends do you have? two
I - It's nice to know: someone cares about you
J - Junior High: Medway Middle.
K - Kissed how many: hmmmm well. thats rather hard to count
L - Longest car ride: 8 hours
M - Moment you can't forget: jumping off buildings
N - Newest friends: Errinn
O - One wish: it wont come true if i tell you
P - Phobia: being alone
Q - Quote: .
R - Reasons to smile: funny things
T - Time you woke up today: 7:00
U - Unknown fact about me: i hate crying
V - Vegetables you hate: mushrooms
W - Worst luck with: boys
X - X-rays you've had: chest, back, shoulder, neck, ankle, leg, arm,hand.
Y - Years since you've been to church: I've never been to church unless required
Z - Zodiac Sign: Libra

love is watching someone die.

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 02:47:26 GMT

Today I put paint handprints all over my wall. then just threw paint on everything. I'm out of a job yet again. I can't work there, not when everytime I go there i will see him. I don't hate him, honestly I don't. I'm just really disappointed in him that he did it. I still hope things go well for him, and I'm of course still going to worry about him but I can't look him in the eye anymore. It hurts to much to even talk to him. So again with the job search. I'm still just getting the blood redistributed to my body. I've spent the last 15 minutes or so looking at my wall upside down. it clears my mind. I want to nap so bad but I cant sleep. Not now. Maybe I will just watch feris buellers day off. I doubt I even spelled it right but I'm getting over that. I'm tempted to take a long walk outside. If I wasn't afraid of going places alone I would go swing on some swings but well my life is hindered by my fears of being by myself. I used to be independent.Funny how many things will change in only one years time. I am so different now and I hate it. I hate how I am so dependent upon people, but I hate when people make decisions for me.Maybe I am just dependent on the company of others. By the way I'm not looking for sympathy. I'm just venting to myself via livejournal. plus this is probably really comical for others to read. In other news Molly ringwald is the number one teen star. I love 80's movies. I still want to nap but I dont want to be by myself.IhatethisIhatethisIhatethisIhatethis.come over and nap with me please. i need something good to happen really soon. I need change, a change for the better. I want someone to just sit and cuddle. no strings no expectation. just some quality movies and cuddling by the fire. No talking, the silences mean so much more than what is verbalized. I would really love a Valentine. That would be nice. Hey Herman Melville. I hate you.

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 02:29:33 GMT

So. I love how I caught him cheating. Seriously, how can you cheat on your girlfriend when she has a key to your house. ughhh. and i knew he was going to do it too. I KNEW. Ever wake up with that unbelievable feeling of dread? yeah got that yesterday. Spent most of today crying but then I realized that I felt alone even when I was with him, I guess it just sucks to be cheated on. I need to find a nice guy i honestly do. and Aj has a girlfriend, not that I want to be with him, cause well some of my worst moments in history included him, i just dont want someone else to be with him. i hate feeling alone, it scares me so much. nice boys should take me on dates. I swear Im a fun girl. hahah.

p.s. eating icecream when its 17 degrees outside is amazing.

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 04:09:36 GMT

definately stole that icon from steph because we have to see this movie like asdybnjkaefnbjhrnjhnskjadnvlkjansdf.

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 19:46:03 GMT

what should my new journal be either:

WhatSarahSaid19
or
xxwhatAdollxx

i cant decide

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 03:36:59 GMT

I HATE DIET SUPPLEMENTS!

I felt sick all day during school which led me to come home and sleep all afternoon until eight which leaves me with this lovely to do list

SHOWER
study for english midterm.. which I prolly wont do
study for THREE history tests
Math homework
bake cake for study party tomorrow

basically i am not going to sleep tonight even though I am still ridiculously tired because these 21 day cleanse pills are still making me sick and shaky

not to mention all the phone calls i have to return slash make to actually have this weekend work out the way it is supposed to. I wish I wasn't always the the organizer or the dependable one. everyone comes up with these great plans and I always end up making them all work.

FUCKING JESUS CHRIST beans has the tv so loud in the other room. ahh im going insane someone help meeeeeeeeee

tomorrow goes as follows

english-midterm
history- three tests
double math- god knows with durham
study- i will sit and listen to music and read moby dick because i hate that study
study again- PARTY cause soon we will be broken up.
sociology- coyle ... that is all i have to say about that

well i should go make some coffee

To fall is not to fail.

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 23:14:39 GMT

I have all of a sudden had a burst of uplifting energy. things are so good aside from not having a job after the 21st so I applied at Old Navy ... getting a few more applications tomorrow to basically anywhere. so yea. I'm not quite sure why I am so happy now. I just watched this movie called "The Third Miracle" it was very good. I am so excited for this weekend seriously. Today in double study we had a Martin Luther King JR Day party.. it was so good. I love that study hall. anyways i had something witty to say but I lost it as per usual. this is boring

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 01:31:13 GMT

I really want to get my tragus pierced but I don't want to go by myself because I'm a crazy like that... so come with me.

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 04:05:11 GMT

Take the first 10 songs that come up on Shuffle on your iPod and add in my pants

one RAIN in my pants.

two BELT in my pants.

three LOVE YOU MORE THAN LIFE in my pants.

four FIRST DAY OF MY LIFE in my pants.

five AMSTERDAM in my pants.

six WAKE UP in my pants.

seven WHY DO YOU LOVE ME? in my pants.

eight DANCE DANCE in my pants.

nine ME AND MIA in my pants.

ten DOWN AND OUT in my pants.

that made me laugh a lot and I pretty much love how that came out. I love shuffle play sometimes.

today was really good. yeah. really good. i really love when mrs. grant is sick ... is that mean to say? probably oh well... its basically like christmas come late like legit. I love days like this and that I'm going to waltham next weekend. seriously this is turning out to be the best week ever so far.

It sure as hell ain't normal... But we deal.

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 05:01:47 GMT

I had an entry filled with change and hope all typed out but I decided that the words I wrote were not filled to the brim with feeling, if they aren't filled with feeling what difference do they make?

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 04:22:28 GMT

My dad just helped me make an assload of bud butter.
so good.
He gave me so much weed today.
fucking love my dad.
I'm just not allowed to tell my mom.
soooooo good.

It snowed in texas but you missed the first time since '86

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 01:09:51 GMT

I am the happiest I have been in a while.
Seriously its like cutting a boat anchor off your leg.
like no seriously.
I am so happy that we broke it off, I knew it wasn't going to last and I knew we weren't right for eachother ... we're still best friends and I love him for that, I just can't love him more than that. It's totally destructive for me when he is always leaving. I need something stable and I guess I finally realized it and I guess he did too. I died every time he left and I died whenever he looked at Britni and Ella the same way we looked at eachother in the beginning. I just don't like to be alone and I think I'm scared that it's going to last this time, and causes me to jump into things that I don't want nor do I need them. I think the excitement of a new relationship blinds me from the reality of what it is. I think that maybe I shouldn't be afraid of being alone any longer. Alone is probably better than trying to hold on to something/ someone who isn't part of you. I think being so different was our demise, we live in two different worlds and have almost nothing in common. I don't want love, I want like, cuddles, and some cute times to put in the photo album. So will I jump into something new? Of course... even though I shouldnt? Still of course I will, it is what makes my life fun. But who is to say that it isnt going be great or even just what I need. The things unplanned are the best you cant get. The unexpected is what makes life exciting. These surprises are what make it real, beautiful and amazing. Regret nothing, I fear my life is far too short for ridiculous regrets, regret is like trying to change the past, it doesn't happen and is just a waste of time, mistakes are everything, they are the imperfections that create our world. We are all so perfectly human. We are all full of mistakes, not regrets. So lets be cute okay?

Its going to be good, I promise myself that because if I break that promise it doesn't hurt anyone and I like that.

2006, here we come.

Sun, 01 Jan 2006 05:16:25 GMT

The New year has come, another number has been latched on to time. To old friends and new love, to fun and the end of loneliness, to sucess and good starts, to good fortune and luck. Here's to the nights we'll feel alive. Let's hope it all sticks right?

Today I got a message on my phone which made me laugh for a good ten minutes. I've missed this person so much and I am so glad that we're talking again.

Someone take me to a show okay? I really need to go to one... so you're taking me right? Okay good. I'm glad we're in agreeance.

work 10-3 tomorrow

Sat, 31 Dec 2005 15:05:02 GMT

Have you ever thought about how maybe things would have been different if you hadn't said some of the things you did? Or that maybe what you really wanted all along would have come about if you had acted upon it in the first place?

seriously leave your thoughts.

Oh and Working with Anne is probably one of the funnest things ever. Her stories on wednesday were like Christmas come late seriously.

listening to pink floyd in chem is great

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 19:05:25 GMT

Way to be the 50th entry in this journal.
I love chem parties. They're pretty deez.
Today I did nothing all day but watch movies. and the middle school is in lockdown I guess.
definately leaving in 29 minutes... how good is that? amazing.
I have to go to the hospital and give Emmaline her gifts.
I miss her still.
I miss a lot of things.
I like how one friend I have in particular acts like im stupid and now all of a sudden because of their new friends they think they are so much better than me. its pretty fucked up.
work... 330 to 945 so good right

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 01:58:10 GMT

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In May I ruled Canada as a cruel and heartless dictator (-700 points). In January I stole robinsonisms's purse (-30 points). Last Sunday I pushed 51daystreet in the mud (-17 points). Last Wednesday I committed genocide... Sorry about that, hautealicouture (-5000 points). In March I pulled over and changed glamorousmind's flat tire (15 points).

Overall, I've been naughty (-5732 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking!

Sincerely,
cardboardxsarah

interesting. today i saw many people i know in target. it was deez. I love seeing people. I like it even better when they come through my line because we get to chit chat. today was an okay day i suppose. sometimes i really hate people though.

I miss you for real.

Mon, 12 Dec 2005 04:23:59 GMT

So my "nephew" threw my camera in the toilet.
I was collectively woken up this morning by Liamaries dad and Britni throwing things at my face.
I ate hatian food and got fatter all weekend.
I got chocolate milk thrown up on me.
I made a snow family and snow angels.
I learned to speak more creole.
I got to roll around in the snow.
I learned that two is just too many.
and that Get Rich or Die Tryin is quite possibly the worst movie I have ever seen.

and i wouldnt change one second of any of it.

I love the following:
New York this christmas break ... it hasnt happened yet but I know it will be under the I love pile.
That art is best done on the sides of Buses and Buidlings.
the way you can smell christmas.
and you can almost smell snowboarding because you want it so bad.
mind you i am awful at snowboarding but i have gotten much better.
One Hit wonders.
Crusties on new piercings (kara knows what I'm talking about)
Black church.
gazebos.
winter.
reading to little kids because they just sit and absorb the words you speak.

Alright that list would be like 6 pages long.
I need to go to bed.

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 21:39:49 GMT

I really l-o-v-e love grimey bitches. They're basically the best ever.
Today was pretty silly.
Math was awesome... We moved the seats around for like 20 minutes... checked homework and then had the rest of the period off because almost no one did their homework.
Drama tonight will be spent playing with a skip it and hopefully a few other things.
Confrontation is my favorite thing... that prolly isnt a good thing but boy do i sure love it.

I really love chapstick.

Sun, 27 Nov 2005 22:51:50 GMT

Aj bought me a really beautiful cross today.
He bought one for himself too.
He says we could both use a little religion in our lives.
Maybe he's right, who am I to put down conventional methods of worship?
Maybe religion could help me in the long run.
Maybe it's what I need.
We're going to church together next sunday.
Maybe we can both find what we're looking for there, because I'm sick of playing hide and seek with life.
I drove his brothers' corvette today, it was pretty awesome, not gonna lie.
I'm starting to think I made a really big mistake. I've been thinking about mistakes a lot lately. I'm not really sure if its an unfixable mistake, I'm not really sure of anything these days.
Yesterday at work I talked to Chris and Laura, it was pretty awesome. and then I definately stood at Jess' register instead of mine.
I don't think I'm even going to the play in december. I don't do anything so it doesn't really matter, plus I don't have the friends in drama that I used to,so it won't be fun like last year, everything was so different then.